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the only reason i feel secure
CHURCHofKINK, CoK, ENTANGLEMENT, ENLIGHTENMENT, INTELLIGENT
strawberryviper
San Diego
Canes (again!)

okay, i'm going to get right to the point because i just typed an entire page and it just disappeared for no reason and i'm so very tired.

today is day 20. what does that mean? well, ever since i saw 40 Days and 40 Nights, i've been trying to err... well, give up all forms of sex for 40 days. so far i've tried twice, i'm now on my third try and i'm 20 days into it and well, things have begun to look differently.

why am i doing this? besides just seeing if i can do it, i'm trying this because i need something different, i need a change, the way i've been going through my life just isn't working and at this point, short of joining a cult or being saved/born again, i'm willing to try anything. there's a part of me that really wants to fall in love, and there's a part of me that just thinks i should become a monk and do the world a favor by not interacting with anyone any more. in some ways, i'm trying to do both. i will say this, giving up ALL forms of sex really alters the way you think and the way you see things. my imagination is working way over time, and all of a sudden everyone is beautiful and sexy (i've always found some kind of beauty in everyone i've met, but this is... different) also, i find that i can write in a way that i find interesting. i've been working on songs and it's actually easier while i'm 'off the sauce' so to speak (it hasn't helped my spelling any though, or my grammer, go figure).
yes i'm a sick man.
all in all, i'd really like to meet a girl and really get to know her, get to know her as a person before having sex with her. i don't know, maybe this is just a defense mechanism, some way my heart is trying to keep itself from getting trashed again, maybe this is just an excuse to become further detached from a life i can no longer understand or live with, or maybe i am just continuing down the rosy road of mental illness, who knows. but this is the furthest i've made it and i'd really like to try to finish the deal this time. everyone knows how bad i am at finishing anything. maybe this will be the one time i get something done, or not done, you know what i mean.

LA tomorrow
house of blues
wish me luck.

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Lots of Luck to you!!

(Ok, it's been since February for me....I will NEVER get used to not having it!)

i'm sending this to everyone who has "louisville" listed as an interest. All you Louisville people be on the lookout...someone stole my giant R2D2 drink cooler off my porch. If you see it, or someone you know took it, please, please, please help return it. It isn't worth anything, because it's yellowed and the lid is busted. One in mint condition is only worth $20-40. (so mine's worth absolutely nothing) PLEASE HELP R2D2 FIND HIS WAY HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey, I hope I'm not bugging you but I saw that you had 'Louisville" listed as an interest. I'm only assuming that is Louisville KY...
I just wanted to let you know about a concert, show, whatever you call it that is going on in Louisville.. please take a few seconds to check it out. Thanks.

June 28,29,30 inFESTed (independent festival of education)
@Brycc 1055 Bardstown Rd. Louisville KY 40204 (last show at Brycc!)

bands, workshops, art, indy films, and more..
HIP HOP, PUNK, POP PUNK, FOLK, HARDCORE, METAL.. ALL KINDS OF GENRES! :)

bands;
KILL YOUR IDOLS
LET IT BURN
SEVEN DAYS OF SAMSARA
KUNGFU RICK
THIS BIKE IS A PIPE BOMB
ADE'EM
MEMENTO MORI
HIRETSUKAN
THE DEVIL IS ELECTRIC
HOLDING ON
XRISENX
THE AWAKENING
ABE FROMAN
REACCION
JIMMY
32 FRAMES
THREE NAILS FOR A FALSE PROPHET
KODAN ARMADA

FILM FEST (independent underground films.. www.lostfilmfest.com)
ART GALLERY (artists from all over.. open all three days!)
WORKSHOPS (learn how to do something useful!)
FREE FOOD! (by food not bombs)
VARIETY SHOW! fire breathers, jugglers, puppet shows.. cool stuff!

$15 for all three days or $6 a day
all ages
show starts at 4pm on Friday, but come early for a movie.. or be on time!
show on saturday and sunday starts at 1pm

www.louisvillemusicindex.org/infested
www.brycchouse.org

check the infested site for band info..

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